As I sat and waited for him to pick me up to start off our daily routine, I had actually taken a moment to assess myself and wondered why I had become the person I am. I am a competitive soul, though many might think that as a good trait, it is eating into my personality. I used to be a person who would mingle without judging and always tried not to judge a book by its cover. I always tried to make the other person feel comfortable in my company.
Somehow I have lost all that along the way. I have been to places where only the fittest survive and I have seen people take advantage of the kindness of others and repay those good deeds with absolute malice. I am ambitious and driven especially to perform academically, yet I always wonder why do I have to push myself so hard to get that A while other are just born intelligent with the path to success already carved out for them.
I know this is no excuse as to why I have turned out to be a girl that is all out for herself and the ones she loves. I have also forgotten to appreciate the smaller things in life and the little gestures of good deed a person does for me. I place everything on a weighing scale. What good I do, I compare it with what others have done and value mine as being of greater worth. Basically I have become selfish and that is really not me. It’s not the person I have been brought up to be. I need to change this and appreciate the good people do for me and never value it against my deeds because there is not right measurement for this sort of weight..
Change my heart O Lord!
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